He's Right

So, it was another day with Sam.  I was still SUPER sore, and he said he doesn't want me that sore and we took it a little easier today.  He said that if I'm constantly in terrible pain from soreness it will be all I ever think about and I will not want to train.  Honestly, he's right.  I was absolutely dreading going to my session today and I almost cancelled, because I just didn't think my body could do it. 

I'm glad I went.  Don't get me wrong; he worked me hard.  I am sore, but I can move comfortably right now.  I don't feel like body parts are going to fall off lol!  We had a chance to talk a little more today, and I feel blessed that Sam was assigned to me.  He really cares and I could really tell that today.  This is his career.  It isn't just a hobby or side job for him.  It is what he's passionate about doing, which makes him more invested in me.  He doesn't want me to simply set weight loss goals.  So, I have other goals like taking steps to eating clean, 25 regular push ups with perfect form, a 5k, a 10k, and eventually a half marathon.

I was doing bicep curls set at 35 lbs and I told him, "You think I'm stronger than I really am."  He looked at me with a grin and said,  "You're a heck of a lot stronger than you think you are.  I'm not the one confused."  After some reflection, I've come to the conclusion that he's right.  This is my 3rd week with him and I'm doing things I never would have thought I could do.  There have been several moments when he tells me to do something and I think I absolutely cannot do this.  I think my body is going to fail me.  Well, I have done every single thing he has asked me to do, so he must be right...I AM stronger than I give myself credit for.

Rough Day

Yesterday was a training day with Sam.  I walked into yesterday's session not feeling my best.  I did several push-ups, step ups, shoulder presses, squats, chest passes with a weighted ball, flutter kicks, leg lifts, etc.  I really can't remember everything.  I can remember that it was hard lol!  I was truly exhausted and afterwards I felt like I was going to vomit.  I think I had some kind of a short term stomach bug.  I spent much of yesterday sick.  I know Sam has worked me harder than what we did yesterday before, so I was probably just a little under the weather since the queasy feeling lasted all day and into the night.

I'm feeling much much better today, but the soreness I feel is awful.  Being sore is the worst part of working out.  I did Zumba on Wii for 45 minutes today and that cardio did help to loosen up my muscles a bit.  I really hate the pain of being sore.  I'm not sure if it will ever go away, because he is constantly changing what I do and challenging me.  I wish losing the weight was as easy as gaining the weight.

The Beginning

Like so many people in the world today, I am trying to lose weight.  This is really just somewhere for me to put all my thoughts down during this journey.  I have been gaining and losing the same 10-15 lbs for about 5 years.  I'm 28, 5'8", and 242 lbs.  I go through a cycle of being really excited about losing weight, telling everyone about it, and slacking off after about two weeks.  This time I have decided to tell no one.  Less than 5 people know I am currently trying to lose weight (again). 

I hired a trainer two weeks ago (Sam) and he is wonderful.  So far, I have had 4 training sessions with him and he has me doing things I never thought I would be able to do.  During a session I feel like I'll never make it, but afterwards I feel great.  The sense of accomplishment I get is amazing!  Right now I see Sam twice a week and I do cardio on my own for 2 days a week. 

I started at 244 lbs, and yesterday I weighed in at 242.6.  So, I've lost 1.4 lbs.  This is because I still eat terribly.  I crave things that are awful for me.  I took the bad stuff out of my fridge and pantry and I will still stop at a fast food place on the way home.  I'm really going to try and do better this week. 

Starting Stats (inches):
R. Arm     14.75
Bust         46.00
Band        38.50
B. Button 46.00
Waist       41.50
Hips         48.00
R. Thigh   32.25
Calf          17.75
Weight     244.0