I haven't blogged much, but I am still here. The last two weeks have had ups and downs. I have definitely eaten better (with some bad choices here and there), but the exercise has been lacking. Something happened yesterday though, and I was craving EVERYTHING! in one sitting I ate two chocolate iced doughnuts and a medium 10 piece nugget meal (with sweet tea). I have no idea why, other than I just wanted it. I wasn't particularly hungry. It was like a compulsion and I had to leave my house. Afterwards, I felt terrible...physically and emotionally. It's like after a few days of making healthy choices my mind/body rebels and says "Give me Junk!!!"
This was my body last night...
I know slip ups happen, but I felt like last night was really bad. I won't dwell on it, but I want to at least get it out there that it happened.
Over the weekend I have been doing a lot of thinking about the true nature of my commitment to change. So far I feel like I am quasi-committed. I've been making half-hearted attempts. I eat well and exercise so long as it does not inconvenience me. This means that I eat better a heck of a lot more than I exercise. I'm normally a planner, but I don;t know if it's better for me to plan things or to just take it one day at a time when it comes to my fitness and health. I need to sit down and think about why I really want this. Right now the first thing that comes to mind is to feel better. My knees ache, and I think it's because of the weight. I remember being much happier when I was eating right and working out regularly. Happiness should be enough. I don't know. I'll think on it and update on my next post.
This is a song from the Coke commercials. I love this song...seriously, love it! Have a great day ladies and gents!
Clean Bandit- Rather Be